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So where has Shane been?

When it comes to blogging, ive been fuckin ghost. This summer has been busy, working full time for the first time ever. I like the 40+ hour a week job thing, made me feel older and definitely thankful to have a job. Originally I was hired for seasonal position but I have been asked to stay on. Things are going really well with that. I work with some fun people and the job isnt but so bad. I have however felt really distanced from my friends. Getting off late every night doesnt help for my social life. This summer has really not been too fun or special. Ive made a lot of money and thats about all I can say about it. Im the most financially stable I have ever been. Feels good to have money. I went a long time without it so its nice. Life in general has just been ehhh. I am dying to have a meaningful relationship with a good girl. I have been over my ex for sometime now but I definitely miss being in a relationship with meaning. I have a prime candidate but she lives 6 hours away. ughhhhh. Shes just about my dream girl, but we only see each other like once a month maybe. That is really in the way. I have needs and being so far away doesnt work. In my relationship I have to have sex. Its not that thats all I want a relationship for but its a part of being in a relationship. Being a Scorpio, I am an extremely sexual person, its only natural. I havent had sex since January and I feel like I am about to go crazy. fuckin 8 months. ugggghhhh. just another thing I miss about being in a relationship. I wont bash her now, my ex definitely made sex something to really miss. She used to fuck the shit out of me. I digress. I basically need a woman who can fuck right cook right which is damn near impossible to find. This semester at school should be enjoyable or at least I hope so. This is a really random ass post n my eyes are heavy. Just got a lot on my mind and I wanted to type it out. Oh well, fuck you

SEXUALLY FRUSTRATED

I am on so many levels

A Clockwork Orange Threesome Scene

a clockwork orange - the old in-out - MyVideo
The fact that its sped up made me laugh

Trouble On My Mind- Pusha T ft Tyler, The Creator

crack

Fuck That Bitch

fuck you bitch

Black Light Affair

It was lovely. The girl im crazy about came and we had a blast. Definitely makes me feel the need to go to Jersey often. We click, we have similar goals and wants. What does this mean???? She is practically what i want in a female. She is absolutely gorgeous, has a head on her shoulders and loves family. Plus Cali is both where we want to be. I hope things work out. Lord help me.

:)

I want a pet bear

Whiskey

Richardon

This is how I am dancing Saturday

Cool Beans

Im Hype

Gator Grabs Patrol Car

Tupac showin Dukie Love

Marvin's Room with a personal memoir

It took me a while to finally sit down to type this. This song has brought up so many memories and evoked so many feelings. I've been on that end of the phone, drunk out of my mind, trying to get that one girl to come over. I've been asked "Are you drunk right now?". Not for the obvious always, sometimes the company is just nice. But with my ex, this song relates all too much. This song made me remember all the things I did for her. I loved her unconditionally, but she didnt love me unconditionally. I wasn't allowed to make mistakes. The many times she was hammered drunk and I was always there to care for her. "just throw up while i hold your hair back", ive been there. I never bitched about the many things you would say or do to hurt me. But I fuck up because I notice shady shit about you and you get mad at me. Don't get that. We stopped being "boyfriend and girlfriend" because you didn't want titles. So we just went on being in a relationship without titles. However, you had no problem hopping into one with this guy. That's why I cut all contact off with you. That was a bitch move. Consider peoples feelings. So I wasnt good enough for you I guess. Like the song, fuck that dude. I have that feeling towards him and he might not even deserve it. None of this is his fault, he isnt in the wrong. Truthfully I don't even know if you are with the same guy or not or with anyone at all. Haven't cared enough to check. I do know you can do better. When it comes to relationships, no one can out do me. Name one thing I didn't do for you when asked. I would drop whatever I was doing to do whatever you asked. The many times I took you to get your hair done, picking you up from work in Newport News when I lived in Norfolk, buying you clothes, feeding you, taking care of you when you were drunk, buying tampons, getting you midol for your cramps, going to get sushi when I dont even eat sushi, spending mad money on you for Christmas to receive nothing for myself, when you wanted to pop adderall and it ended up making you sick and I cared for. The list goes on. I never bitched about doing anything. I just did because I thought you were appreciative and thats just what "boyfriends" do. After we would make love, you would always look me in my eyes and tell me how much you loved me. I always responded with I love you more. Its clear, I loved you more. But that's the past. I've moved on as have you. Took me a while but I am fine with it. I am over you, but I would be a liar if I said I didn't miss you sometimes. I havent had what we had with someone else before, so its easy to miss. However, I know your true colors and getting back together in the future really doesnt appeal to me. I do hope your father gets out of the mess he is in though, although I will likely never meet him, he deserves to be home. I have a new woman in my life now and hopefully that works out. Thats it, I really had to get it off my chest. Bye

PS-Donating my shorts was real ass hole move. Plus you gave me a pair of shorts that arent mine. How classy of you.

Lovely Quote

"When I was 5 years old, my mother always told me that happiness was the key to life. When I went to school, they asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I wrote down "happy". They told me I didn’t understand the assignment.I told them they didn’t understand life."

— John Lennon

That Way- Wale feat. Ross and Jeremiah

Maybach Music is killing the game right now

In Between Two Ferns with Will Ferrell

Between Two Ferns with Zach Galifianakis: Will Ferrell from Will Ferrell

Chris Hansen confronting a bike theif

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The guy who shot Osama

The Navy Seal Who Killed Osama Bin Laden from Rob Riggle

Happy Mothers Day

I remember so clearly when Kanye West mother passed. My boy Keenan and I went to his concert and it just so happened to be on mothers day. It wasnt long after his mother had passed, so it was hard for him to finish this song. However its a wonderful song nonetheless. Happy Mothers Day

Ricky Ross

Rockin to these Rick Ross songs pretty heavy right now.

Unforgettable

Ken Kaniff

Makes me laugh every time

Talib

greattttttt song

A Different Easter......

When I get back imma fill yall in.

THE Dart Scene

This is How I Feel

Real Men Are Distrustful of Robots with Drake

Real Men Are Distrustful of Robots with Drake from Drake_

For the first time.....

I really feel out of my league. I am a bit lost on how this chick is throwing me interest. Like seriously

These are the nights......

where I want a significant other so bad.

Had to do what I had to do

Pretty much got low blowed today, I had to do it. Its for my sake. I'm not gonna go on about you and how much you really hurt me. Thats that.

We all black within.......

Love this song for some reason.

I'm Trying

World.......I am trying, I am trying.......

The realest shit I have ever retweeted.......

You can never "just be friends" with somebody you used to love...simply because a little part of you will ALWAYS love them.

Canteen Boy

Is my beard scratchy canteen boy?

Can't Wait.....

for the next girl to come along and break my heart. Fuck that, fuck love.....I am gonna become a whore. 3/31/2011 it begins.

There is Something About this Song...

Tell me baby, are you wet?

My Recent Theme Song

Struck out swingin.....

yay go me! i must have the record for most strikeouts. FML. I feel like a dumbass again. Way to go shane. I told myself I wouldnt chase, n i fell flat on my face again.

Just One of Those Days

A real blah day. I don't feel the best. Feel drained. I just wanna chill with her and be lazy. But yea, the chances are very slim.

DAMNNNNNNNNNNN

As soon as I make that decision, my desire becomes stronger. Man....she looked good yesterday, realll good. FUCK!

Wolfgang Amadeus- Phoenix

This song makes me happy.

My Note To You

I came to a conclusion the other night after being knee deep inside a bunch of Rolling Rocks. I can't do this anymore. I'm hurt. I really had to think it through. I have battling interests in my head of what to do. But I gotta do what is best for me. No doubt, I am still very much in love with you. But my attempts are getting me nowhere. I am trying. I'm sorry you don't trust me anymore even though you can. I want you so bad. But I feel like there is no point in me trying. I just fall on my face. I just wanted you to spend the night with me, I was drunk I would hope you understood like the many times I did. That hurt. I love you more than life and I have expressed this to you a million times. I am not just putting words together in order to win you over. I can't chase you anymore. To borrow an expression of yours, this isn't healthy. I don't want nobody else in the world. I know you still love me too or at least have some type of feelings towards me. I am sure of it. I see on Twitter your posts, I miss you too. I don't know any other way to express it to you. But I am done trying. I don't know what else to do. I hate looking like a jackass and thats what I look like by not getting things to work. Whatever you have going on your mind about us, just let it out. I'm sorry, I don't want to be your friend. I will only be your best friend and lover. I won't take you any other way. I have done what I possibly can. The ball is in your court. My door will always be open. The choice is yours, I won't let you down. Yea we talk every now and then, you may think I am mad or something, but no. I just don't know what to do or say. Not saying I am cutting off contact. But I will not reach out to you nearly as much. If you are ready though, so am I.
Love you,
Shane

My Blog

I love my blog. I love the fact no one looks at it. So serious. I dont promote it for a reason. It really gives me a way to vent and get shit off my chest. It's so refreshing. When I first started the blog I wanted people to look at it and possibly get some hype. I realized that is not what I wanted at all. It is my some sort of a diary. There is a reason I stopped the FB feed. I like to look back at posts and just live those memories. I post shit for me and not for you. Sorry, thats just the way it is.

Japanese Prank Show

Pretty funny stuff

RIP Nate Dogg

I was pretty saddened when I heard Nate died. Literally my favorite person on hooks period. I knew he was dealing with complications when I was in High School, I guess it just caught up with him. Lost another good one. RIP Nate Dogg

NCAA Tourney!!

The best time of the year is here. Of course I will be riding with my boys Duke and Old Dominion. This bracket is so damn hard that I can't even give you my Final Four. However the champion will be Duke, watch bitch.

Panama City Beach Recap

Man oh man. I needed this vacation so bad. Haven't had a vacation since 9th grade. So my buds Rivera, Tyler, Jeff and Matt took our talents to Panama City Beach for Spring Break. I had the time of my life. Took a good 14 hours to get there on no sleep and just started pounding beers. We were drunk from Saturday about 5pm to early Friday morning. We took 250 beers and 5 handles of liquor down which was all gone by early Thursday. SHITFACED!!!!!! We stayed in an awesome hotel and i mean awesome. Crawling with the sexiest of girls. We met a lot of cool people. We met these dudes from Central Michigan who play football for them. Cool ass dudes. Met people from Michigan State, ECU, Middle Tennessee, Clark-Atlanta, Spelman, Morehouse and even some ODU people. Everyone was mad chill. So we started off Saturday by going to this club called Sharkys. Sharkys is neat because its outside but with cover. We chilled their for a bit then headed back to the telly. The lack of sleep and torrential downpour that occurred ended our night. Sunday began pounding beers at like 9 am went to the pool n relaxed. We eventually went to this club called Coyote Ugly. The place is awesome. Bitches are dancin on the bar, flashin and all that shit. It was awesome. Of course Jeff and Rivera had a little to much to drink and had to leave early lol. We were all shitfaced taking body shots, beer bongs and shots at this place. Awesome night. The next day Lil Scrappy was performing at Club Lavela, the biggest club in the US. Shit is legit, has a pool in the middle of the club. Scrappy performed for free and it was a good time. After went to the beach and just networked and shit. Eventually went back and partied in the hotel. Beer pong, cards, beer bongs, just going crazy with or neighbors from Michigan State. The next day we went to the beach, drank it up some more and cooled it. LMFAO was having a show at Lavela and we ended up going. Shit was bananas. too much fun, those guys are performers. Wednesday we went to Spinnakers. Rivera and I liked this spot a lot. Not only did the guy mark as being 21, the dance floor and vibe was awesome. Free beer from 7-9 at all these clubs btw. So of course took advantage of that then bought a round of Killians Irish Red for the fellas. Went back to the hotel around 11ish and partied at the hotel like crazy. We were partyin in the suites on the top floor, the real expensive shits. I was tore up, passed out on the floor in our room. Guys said all i needed was chalk around my body. haha Rivera and I left a day early so we werent gonna go crazy Thursday. Well guess again. Went to the beach, but it was cold as a bitch. Came back to the telly and then went to Margaritaville. shit was lovely. Came back and played cards with the girls from ECU. lol thats all im going to say about that. Ended up not going out but got fucked up of course. The whole trip was a shit show. It was so fun. I had the time of my life. I already want to go back again. The only complaints I have is the drive and the weather sucked. Breezy and in the 60s the whole time. Hell of a time. Likely my best Spring Break ever.

GA Radio

On my way returning to VA, coming up I-85 through Columbus and onto Atlanta, the radio stations were illlllllllll!!!! playin all dope shit. stuff has stuck with me since then and here are some.

FUCK

I always manage to fuck up. It never fails man. I'm not mad at anyone else, only myself. I am a royal jackass. I guess I try to force things. Maybe i need to lay off the influences for a bit. Lord knows it aint helpin

Less than a week.....

Empire of the Sun

I dig this group right here. I had heard the song "Walking on a Dream" before, but I never knew who it was by or what it was called. At the end of the movie Hall Pass, this song plays. My boy Keenan of course has their whole cd. Shit is ill. Here is another track that im digging......

Nervous

I am nervous. I want things to be like they were. I guess its too soon? I dont want to rush her but I want her. I want her love. I want it now. I gotta be patient though.

My Weekend

Let me just say this, ended way better than it started. Friday was lazy. Didn't do shit until when my boys Nikko, Mek and Keen came out. Grabbed some beers, walked around to find a party. Really nice day outside, 70's surprisingly. Of course I don't do parties that charge cuz thats gay, so we didn't find anything. I had a niche I was gonna run into my ex. As expected, I did. I haven't seen her in so long it was comforting, yet awkward because of the time. I hate that. She looked beautiful. So beautiful I was mesmerized, honestly. Any who, we have talked consistently for some days now. I love it. I really really really do. Saturday, I was going to Brain Drain in Richmond with my boy Keenan. If you aren't familiar, its just a huge rager each month at the Hat Factory. I was in for an experience. After 3 hours to get to Richmond..................yea 3 hours cuz of brush fires. Last I checked I was in VA, not CA. Any who, running behind like shit, met up with my boy Dallas, poured it up real quick, then hitched a taxi to the hat factory. I was drunk, not fucked up thankfully, and had an awesome time. It's just a bunch of fun. You don't have people playin the wall n shit, everyone n just groovin. Tons of fun and I will go back. Sunday wasn't crazy or anything. But overall an awesome weekend. Delayed posting this cuz i wanted to get some pics from Brain Drain up.


Shouts to Dope On Plastic for the illllll shots. Search Dope on Plastic on FB

So serious.....

I don't think anyone knows how bad I want this shit to work out. It hurts I want it so much. All I can do is hope.

I'm awfully sorry

One in a Million

This is an instant classic.

Twitter

I am starting to really have a love/hate thing with it.

Way Out

THE STORY OF MY LIFE NO BULLSHIT

This can't be love

The most emotional verse in a hip hop song I have ever heard by Scarface. Love this song.

Yesterday

was pretty rough. It didn't really set in until you hit everyone up and they got plans. It would be nice to not sulk during the holiday. Really would. I bought black and milds, it was that kind of day. Well here is to making sure next year things go as they are planned.

Cabin Fever

Don't even like Wiz like that, however here is an exception....
YEAH.....................BITCH

I won't

I won't bring you down with depressing ass posts today. Your welcome.

Mini Vacation

Lord knows I need it

So that's it?

I think I am still too shocked to be sad. Hmm iono

Joe Budden Pandora Radio

Budden is one of my favorite artists and today it just seem to hit. Figured I would share a few.....

FB and Twitter

I went ahead and revived both. Got my new phone and figured what the hell ya know?

2 Live Crew

I'm like a dog in heat, a freak without warning

Between Two Ferns with Tila Tequila and guest

Between Two Ferns with Zach Galifianakis: Tila Tequila from Between Two Ferns

Who's Darrell?

iPhone!!!!

Finally get mine tomorrow! I am so excited. I waited for it. With that said Blackberry Storm for sale for a Benjamin.

So I got another fish.....

this guys name is Hand Banana. I think I am addicted to Bettas. I already want another. It is nice to come home from a stressful day and just watch them swim around. It is very relaxing and peaceful. I wish these types of fish could be put together without fighting. It sucks I gotta separate them. When I was younger I had a betta, he didn't last very long. But these guys seem to be healthy, so we will seeeeeeeeee.

Let Me Love You

I will sing this on cue. Really only Mario track I can vibe with, however very goooooood song.

Today

Has been so fucking busy. Geeeeeeeeeez.

VCU this weekend

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

Aaron Rodgers

Well my favorite player in the NFL today got his championship. Very glad to see the Steelers lose. I can't stand their fans. I worked at a sports store, I heard it allllll the time. So fuck em. Any who, Aaron Rodgers solidified himself as an elite QB in the NFL. My favorite player since Sean Taylor, dude is ridiculous. Just wish he didn't play for the Packers. To think he was one pick away from being a Redskin kinda fucks with me. But oh well, my fave player got to hoist the Lombardi trophy. This marks the third straight year I picked the right winner. Maybe I should bet next year.

Queen

One of my favorite bands of all time. Mr. Mercury was out there, but none the less, an awesome band. I mean they made Bohemian Rhapsody.............I mean come on.



Fat Bottomed Girls :D

Social Networks

So I have been off of my Twitter and Facebook for almost two weeks now. I did it as an experiment for myself. One, to see if I could do it. Two, to see how it really effected my life. Lastly, I needed a break from the masses. I learned somethings. I am more focused without it. Wayyyyy more. The urge was never really there, except for times when bordem struck. However, I did feel a disconnect from some people that I really only talk to on FB because of distance. I will be back, I just can't decide when. It is possible to be without though!

Thumbs Up

Randomly stumbled across this pic of MLK Jr. Never seen it before, its pretty awesome. Would really be a nice picture on the wall.

Super Bowl Pick

Green & Yellow, Green & Yellow

I want my name to be Spaghetti

So this is my betta. His name is Spaghetti. No we didn't come up with the name out of random, its from Aqua Team Hunger Force. Anywho, he is pretty awesome. He has lasted a week which has shocked me.

B.O.O.T.A.Y.

So while browsing the aisles of FYE, Jarrell finds this CD for a whopping $3. The hypest shit ever. haha

The Shower Chair

The good ol days

Valentines Day

I would say it is pretty much official, I won't have a valentine this year. Pretty bummed. I was lookin forward to the day. I have never had a legit valentine. I guess all things happen for a reason. No?

My Trip

to Panama City is booked. I am very excite.

Focus

How we goin out to eat, I thought you ain't swallow?

Put your headphones on..

and nod.........

Got damn backyard is bangin like a Benzy

Red Dead Redemption

I recently played this game to death. Got the game for Christmas but really didn't pick it up and play because of the Kinect and Black Ops. But a few weeks ago, I finally popped it in and started. Made by Rockstar, which is notorious for their open-world GTA series, made this game. Think of it as GTA on horses and set back a hundred years. The story follows that of former outlaw John Marston. Marston gave up being an outlaw to be with his wife and son. However, the government kidnaps both and forces John to bring down his former outlaw friends. I won't spoil anything, but that is what the whole quest is about. The story is awesome, I even read somewhere a move adaptation is in the talks. I have beat the game to the point there is nothing left to do. It is quite awesome and I must say it is one of my all time faves. This game will take a while to beat, it is worth every penny. I recommend if you haven't already, go pick this game up.

Haters

VA weather

always fucks with me

PBR and Taco Bell

I'm pretty drunk. My boy Jarrell and I drank four tall boys each. So i'm def drunk. We had a great convo as usual. That's my dude for real. He offers the best advice on what to do. He knows what he is talkin about. That guy is a true friend. Now pass out time. Bye bye

Wednesday

I'm still miserable. Lovely.

Still

No matter who is right or wrong, I miss her oh so very much. I am lonely. Really hit me hard this morning. Happy Tuesday.

Mondays...

I hate them

Last Night SMH

So last night was a surprise bday at my house for my buddy DeVon. Wasn't supposed to be a crazy party or anything, just some drinkin and some pong. Well that's what it was for a bit. People came in that I didn't know, thinkin that they knew DeVon, so I let it go. Later on a fight breaks out and my boy Chris is involved. I am tryin to break it up but shit was just crazy. Everyone was getting involved. Finally got the people outside that I didn't know, went outside to talk to them and then a big fight breaks out on the side of the house. My roommate gets punched in the back of the head and people just are actin dumb. Finally get everyone calm then I see the cops pull up. I am drunk and underage, so I ran. Meet up with my boy Ryan and we walk away from everything and talk about what happened. The whole thing was over a bump in a crowded house -__________- . People need to grow up. That was the last party I am having at my house. People act dumb for no reason. So thats it. No more. I am pissed the fuck off. I've had a shitty ass week. I wanted this to be a way to make up for the week. I got drunk and was having a solid time, but people got to fuck it up. Anyway, cops acted fine. The people still at the house said we were clearing out the house and the cops let everything go. Thank goodness. I'm really pissed that my friends got hit over dumb shit and Goldi gets pushed. I am glad I didn't punch no one. Then more and more people would have jumped in and that would have just been too much. This week has fuckin sucked. I'd really like to catch a break. I really wish I had someone to lay down with. One in particular but I guess not all dreams come true. Today is dedicated to me relaxing. I need this.

Hand Banana

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hahahahaha

Black Dynamite

bright spot of my week

Well.......

looks like the day I was definitely looking forward to won't happen. I wanted to spend it and make it memorable. Thanks, thanks a lot.

AGAIN

i messed up, imagine that. I got some issues with myself that i need to overcome. you can only say sorry and be forgiven but so many times. I truly get it. I'm on a path to fixing my issues immediately. I'm tired of saying sorry. I will fix myself so I won't have to use the word. Gonna talk to god, ask for some guidance. Im gonna go now, Monday is my busiest day.

Do you shop online?

If you shop online, there is a site that you should know of. I have used the site and it is legit. The site is ebates. Ebates offers those signed up with a percentage back on your purchases. It isnt just like 5 stores that you've never heard of. Sites like ebay and fye to name a few. So if you could do me the service of signing up, not only will I get $5, but so will you. It is a no brainer and is free to sign up. So if you could follow the link and even spread the word that would be awesome. Thanks

First Post of 2011

I've been slacking on my posting thus far in 2011. 2011 has been pretty solid. Had a huge huge huge party for New Years. It was a major success I hear. I don't remember anything. I'm finding out a little bit here and there. I was pretty nervous about dealing with my landlord since we aren't supposed to have parties. So I sweated that for a few days to find out he wasn't even there. Talkin about dodging a bullet. The party was way bigger than I expected. Didn't have a hangover but it took a lot of energy out of me. Things between my girl and I are going just dandy. I feel like we are married. She is my wifey. Love her to death. I still don't have a job. Not even a call back. However, as of last week I am collecting unemployment now! I am back in the money! I won my appeal and woke up one morning with a nice 2k in the bank. I need this money so bad. I don't feel constricted anymore. First thing I did was spend it on bills. Paid off my credit card, lights and natural gas. Not to mention threw some money at my parents who helped me majorly. It's a good feeling, I finally have money after 5 months. Classes started yesterday and they don't seem but so bad. I think this semester will be good. I am off of Academic Probation and am now a Sophomore. It's a good feeling. I was .2 from being on Dean's List. Quite the turnaround. A class I failed Spring 2010, I got an A in the Fall. Really shows how big of a deal professors are. Although 2011 has been good to me, I got pretty sick. I was sick for like a whole week with a severe sinus infection. I felt dead. I get sinus infections nearly every year but this was by far the worst. I was just drained. 2011 I am determined to make a good year. Hell, I turn 21 this year.